Whew! What a stressful nerve-racking first day of work!
This morning started off fine. We all met in the cafeteria and listened to speeches from the principal and played a game. And then we broke off into our departments for lunch and to meet with our departments for the first time.
This morning started off fine. We all met in the cafeteria and listened to speeches from the principal and played a game. And then we broke off into our departments for lunch and to meet with our departments for the first time.
So I hopped in a car to carpool with a member of our
department for our lunch time destination…when I felt a cold sensation on my
lap. I didn’t screw the cap to my water bottle all the way together and water
spilled out all over the contents of my purse and all over my crotch…neat.
We got to Pizza hut and ate the buffet pizza and chatted, but I was so nervous that I didn’t have much of an appetite and didn’t eat very much. I'm trying to remember the feeling of starting over and meeting new faces. It's silly, I try to act open and friendly and as soon as words come out of my mouth I'm super quick to judge what I've said.
We then met in my department head’s classroom to discuss our building procedures and the lesson plan skeleton and supplies and such. They all knew what they were talking about but I felt SO lost! I was panicking on the inside! Even when they explained some of it to me, I was still lost. I still don’t know what all supplies I need. I bought a bunch of pencils, calculators and rulers already, and they gave me a bag of scissors…but I still don’t know what else I need…lab supplies? Glue? Paper? Notebooks? This is absolutely frustrating…I KNOW I will probably need a huge box of tissues…for myself anyway.
Then I finally got to see my room and my mood didn’t improve much. It’s a big room, but it has awkward placements of items such as the dry-erase boards and the projector are on two different walls…so to use both I’m going to have to carefully position my seats, but that part of the room is small so the desk are going to have to fit awkwardly somewhere in there…and then there is my desk…well lack thereof. I don’t have a desk (as of yet…hopefully) and my DUSTY computer is in pieces on a stand with no chair…except for a high old stool.
The room is completely filthy too with dust and dirt everywhere…and it smells like dust and dirt. There’s stuff from the old teacher left behind that I don’t know what to do with or where to put (including 3 large dirty moldy fish tanks, and a fog machine) I also opened a box just sitting on a table full of dead rats…granted they were properly bagged in formaldehyde for student dissections…but still…was NOT expecting to find those.
We got to Pizza hut and ate the buffet pizza and chatted, but I was so nervous that I didn’t have much of an appetite and didn’t eat very much. I'm trying to remember the feeling of starting over and meeting new faces. It's silly, I try to act open and friendly and as soon as words come out of my mouth I'm super quick to judge what I've said.
We then met in my department head’s classroom to discuss our building procedures and the lesson plan skeleton and supplies and such. They all knew what they were talking about but I felt SO lost! I was panicking on the inside! Even when they explained some of it to me, I was still lost. I still don’t know what all supplies I need. I bought a bunch of pencils, calculators and rulers already, and they gave me a bag of scissors…but I still don’t know what else I need…lab supplies? Glue? Paper? Notebooks? This is absolutely frustrating…I KNOW I will probably need a huge box of tissues…for myself anyway.
Then I finally got to see my room and my mood didn’t improve much. It’s a big room, but it has awkward placements of items such as the dry-erase boards and the projector are on two different walls…so to use both I’m going to have to carefully position my seats, but that part of the room is small so the desk are going to have to fit awkwardly somewhere in there…and then there is my desk…well lack thereof. I don’t have a desk (as of yet…hopefully) and my DUSTY computer is in pieces on a stand with no chair…except for a high old stool.
The room is completely filthy too with dust and dirt everywhere…and it smells like dust and dirt. There’s stuff from the old teacher left behind that I don’t know what to do with or where to put (including 3 large dirty moldy fish tanks, and a fog machine) I also opened a box just sitting on a table full of dead rats…granted they were properly bagged in formaldehyde for student dissections…but still…was NOT expecting to find those.
Speaking of rats… apparently the whole science building is
infested with them…AND ANTS which are ALL over the floor and countertops.
The walls are painted gray too, and ugly dull gray with dirt coated base boards. I know I should be thankfully that I have a ROOM at all and that I have a job…but it’s hard to look at Kati’s pretty clean bright room in her building and my drab gross one in the much older building.
I have a LOT of work to do. My room just creeps me out
I did put in a bid on a life-size model skeleton on ebay today for my classroom…and my posters that I ordered should be coming in the mail soon.
Sigh
The walls are painted gray too, and ugly dull gray with dirt coated base boards. I know I should be thankfully that I have a ROOM at all and that I have a job…but it’s hard to look at Kati’s pretty clean bright room in her building and my drab gross one in the much older building.
I have a LOT of work to do. My room just creeps me out
I did put in a bid on a life-size model skeleton on ebay today for my classroom…and my posters that I ordered should be coming in the mail soon.
Sigh
